On a Considerably Lighter Note

Just copy-and-pasted from a bulletin on MySpace about birthmonths. I disagree with this whole-heartedly.

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Trustworthy and loyal. Very passionate and dangerous. Wild at times. Knows how to have fun. Sexy and mysterious. Everyone is drawn towards your inner and outer beauty and independent personality. Playful, but secretive. Very emotional and temperamental sometimes. Meets new people easily and very social in a group. Fearless and independent. Can hold their own. Stands out in a crowd. Essentially very smart. If you ever begin a relationship with someone from this month, hold on to them because their one of a kind.

What do you want me to do? What do you want me to say? Sure, I can stand there and be supportive! Just don't ask advice! I can't give it! I'm not bitter, really, I just don't know! I don't know what you want from me!!

どうして。

*rubs temples* Me thinking about how pissed off he is pisses me off even more. I feel like he's put way too much into this one small thing, and it may not be the last time in his life. I'm sorry. I know it hurts. But moving on is a part of life. One of these days he's gonna have to learn that.

I Can't Believe It

This shouldn't hurt this bad. They've gone up to the Hill without me before. I've known that. So why does it hurt this time? Why do I feel like I've been stabbed in the back and left for dead? "We are forgetting about you now, and we will be going to the hill with Christian Kim and Court" is what he said. I know him, I can hear him saying it, requiring a mop for the sarcasm...so why does it hurt this time? You're not making the move any easier. If anything, the distance has been doubled since I read that.

Why?

You Know Something?

I really think I love him.

More Awesome Playlistyness

Don't try to hide your excitement, I know you're geeked.

1.) The Hand That Feeds - Nine Inch Nails
2.) Kill All Your Friends - My Chemical Romance
3.) My Way Home is Through You - My Chemical Romance
4.) Poison - Alice Cooper
5.) Lay Down My Pride - Jeremy Camp
6.) Another Brick in the Wall - Pink Floyd
7.) Even Flow - Pearl Jam
8.) Killing Lonliness - HIM
9.) Suavemente - Elvis Crespo
10.) Desert Song - My Chemical Romance
11.) Born Free - Andy Williams
12.) The Adventure - Angels & Airwaves
13.) Piano Man - Billy Joel
14.) It's My Life - Bon Jovi
15.) Sooner or Later - Breaking Benjamin
16.) Vitamin R (Leading Us Along) - Chevelle
17.) 25 or 6 to 4 - Chicago
18.) Clocks - Coldplay

Heh. Enjoy.

Or something.

I seem to have this thing for eighteen tracks. Huh.

You know me, bright ideas just pop into me head and I keep thinkin'...

Seems a downright shame how short life can be, and how unexpected the end often is. I'm not sure why, but this has been bouncing around my head lately. It kind of began with the passing of Heath Ledger - I hadn't seen Brokeback until a couple monthes after his death, and the whole time I was watching, I kept thinking how great this loss was, so much talent...and it had just begun to hit its stride; he hadn't been in a great number of films, but he was finally getting the recognition he deserved, he had so far to go. A dear friend of mine recently lost someone, and while I didn't know him, it's odd to think that my friend will never see him again, never call, never talk to him, because he simply isn't there anymore. It hit me again in full force, and brought on this blog, a few minutes ago - a local actor passed away two years ago of Crohn's disease (it flared up and he was gone), and he was similar to Heath; he was a budding actor here in town, and was in the process of moving to either Chicago or New York, I forget which, to persue acting full time, because he was brilliant at it - I'd seen him in several productions locally, and had wanted to work with him, or at least meet him - but that won't be happening any longer, because he's not here, he will never again grace the stage with his superb ability.

I guess, my point kind of is, carpe diem, kids. If you want to meet someone (or go as far as work with them) make it happen, don't wait. Maybe that's not really my point at all. Carpe diem is, to be sure, but...make life happen, because if you just wait for it to come, you may find your wait cut short. One of my favourite sayings is Shit Happens. Yeah, it does. But sometimes, if you really want shit to happen, you have to give it a kick. And what of it if you get called a shitkicker? At least you had fun doing it. Don't worry about having to clean your shoe at the end of the day. Just seize it before it slips away for good.