I cannot tell a lie.

The future scares me shitless.

I've declared my history major, but...what does that mean for me in life? I don't want to be stuck in something - that's why it's taken me so long to declare. I love language, I love literature, I love history, I love theatre (even though I'm rotten at it) - how can I decide?

Every time I reconsider my options, I decide something new. Just earlier today I considered a religious studies minor - hadn't I decided on French/Japanese double minor (if I can swing Japanese)? There are so many possibilities that every time I settle on one, I feel as though I've denied the others.

Am I reading too much into this? Or being aware - and worried - that my future depends on this?