Fancy that.

It would seem that the biggest issue I have with getting work done is a lack of focus. Maybe if I didn't have this incredible ability to distract myself so easily...

*skips off to go read Franklin's autobiography*

Earth to Self-Discovery...

Another year...another semester...another entry.

So - New Year - Resolutions yeah! I've pretty much decided that 2010 is my year. I'm going to realise my academic goals finally, I'm going to realise my weight goals finally, I'm going to realise my...um...personality/identity goals...Basically I'm going to figure out who I am and why and proudly declare that this is ME. This is so incredibly daunting I can't even tell you. But you know what? I can get through it. It'll probably be a pain in the ass, but I'm willing to bet that if I succeed...I'd be so geeked. I'm pretty sure there aren't words to describe how I'd feel. So yeah. That's going to be my year.

New semester - OMG I picked a hellacious semester to actually accomplish everything. It's my first lab class, and there is a considerable amount more going into that than I expected. My history class consists of reading a book a week for discussion. My French class is reading/writing based. My Japanese class is one giant research project. My Psych class meets four days a week and requires six hours of experiment time for the semester. Is it honestly possible to fit all this into one fifteen-week semester?? We'll find out. But here again, as much as I'm freaking out (and this only the second week...) I'm going to do it. Because I want to. Even with all the stress of getting it done, I will feel so much better at the end knowing I did it all. I'm excited for that prospect.

New entry - Yeah that's it. hahaha Um...Basically this year and this semester represent the proverbial new leaf for me. I've been saying for years that I'll turn it over only to sit there staring at the leaf for twelve months and at the end, wonder why nothing's changed. Now I'm going to affect that change. I've been restless lately...I know I generally am, but recently the wanderlust has dug deeper and been more insistant than ever. I feel led to get out of here, to do something, anything. I really can't explain it, since it's more of a feeling than anything, but...I'm going to let this feeling lead me. Let's see where I end up, shall we?

That being said, I'll try to keep this up with mental state and how it's coming. Maybe if I hold myself accountable to my non-existant audience, I'll keep up. But now I need to go investigate my first astronomy lab ever. It's math-based...so if I survive tonight, the semester should be a breeze. Ha.

平和

Remus

Post-Lab Update: I'm beginning to remember why I so intensely disliked math in high school...But I'll muddle through it. *cue: I Will Survive* Also, I forgot to add - part of this year is saying sayounara to the basket case. I've lately discovered that that part of me is pretty similar to Kate Winslet's character's dilemma in "The Holiday" and Grog no like. So that is also happening in 2010. Ok, I think that's it for now. Good night Neverland.

FYI

I'm brewing up a couple updates...just so you know. I didn't realise it had been so long since I'd posted...woops. There are entries to be made, but they're not ready for the light of day yet. Patience is a virtue, mates.

Because there are SO MANY of you breaking down my door for an update. Heh.

Is this an epiphany or a mini-bitchfest?

After all this bloody time I've finally worked out that I can't, in fact, write a paper the night before. So now I know for next semester. Fat lot of good that does me, as I now have a paper due at an immobile deadline this evening, and in the five hours since I've sat here at my computer, I might have written a paragraph. Most I can do at this point, I guess, is pray next semester is the turning point of my college career.

So now, before I go into a melancholy self-examination about my talents, doubts, and everything else, I'm gonna go attempt to finish this sucker.

平和
Remus

(I tried to sign with my name in Japanese. HAHAHAHAHAHA Nice try, internet stalkers that probably don't actually exist.)

Holding On for Dear Life

It was almost eleven, and she was almost late for church. The day was hinting at being beautiful, regardless of the cold wind - the sun was brighter than it had been all week. Campus was peaceful at this time on weekends, especially the last Sunday of the semester. The only sounds were the faint hum of cars on one of two busy streets in town and the rush of the wind. When she came to a tree, however, a new sound greeted her ears - a rustling. Her first thought was of two squirrels scampering up and down a trunk somewhere, but as her eyes followed the sound, she saw that the tree was too young and small for more than one squirrel at any one time. Instead, she found four or five leaves still rather tenaciously attached to the slight branches. They looked as though their time was coming soon, considering how brown they looked and how much noise they made. A few trees later, she heard the sound again - but this time, it really was two small black squirrels running along a great, old tree. She searched this tree for any remaining leaves, but found none. The only leaves to be found were on the ground.

Thinking back on it later, it occurred to her that those few unfallen leaves were representative of the students on campus. The semester was drawing to a close, final exams were imminent, and at this time of year, those students really had a deathgrip on life. In barely a week, they would let go and fly free and life would be grand.

(Never mind that that grand time would only be a few weeks.)

I'm blogging about something other than me? What?

New Hampshire, Connecticut, Vermont, Iowa, and Massachusetts all have legalised gay marriage. So...if the general geographic area originally settled by the Puritans can do that...why can't the rest of us?

Random Insanity

Isn't that pretty much this whole blog...?

For the first time in quite a while, I miss GJ. Stupid server failure.

I've got a giant history project due Monday. (You may remember it - I was ranting about it a while back...) I've pretty much got it outlined...actually doing it is so far proving to be another story. The PowerPoint's been open for a few hours now, and I've done a slide and a half. Progress! Only not really! Yeah!

It's the last leg of my teenage years this week...I haven't decided yet if that's good or bad.

I CAN'T BELIEVE IT'S ALMOST THANKSGIVING. Where the fuck did this last year go? I distinctly remember posting last Thanksgiving, how can it have been a year?? According to all the adults I've ever talked to, the years don't slow down either...le sigh. Maybe rather than holding time in an unsuccessful death grip, I should just embrace it and go with the flow...

That's enough for now. I'm starting to feel guilty abandoning my project.

平和

Remus

Variation on a Theme

Why does the basket case in me stick around like no other?

Aw jeez.

Apparently I'm not where I thought I was...

Come Together

Why are the Beatles so timeless and so absolutely amazing?